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growing on me

2005-06-23T01:47:34Z

"Growing On Me"

I can't get rid of you
I don't know what to do
I don't even know who is growing on who
'Cos everywhere I go you're there
Can't get you out of my hair
Can't pretend that I don't care - it's not fair

I'm being punished for all my offences
I wanna touch you but I'm afraid of the consequences
I wanna banish you from whence you came
But you're part of me now
And I've only got myself to blame

You're really growing on me
(Or am I growing on you?)
You're really growing on me
(Or am I growing on you?)
Any fool can see

Sleeping in an empty bed
Can't get you off my head
I won't have a life until you're dead
Yes, you heard what I said

I wanna shake you off but you just won't go
And you're all over me but I don't want anyone to know
That you're attached to me, that's how you've grown
Won't you leave me, leave me alone

You're really growing on me
(Or am I growing on you?)
You're really growing on me
(Or am I growing on you?)
Any fool can see

You're really growing on me
(Or am I growing on you?)
You're really growing on me
(Or am I growing on you?)

Slide

2005-06-01T00:48:35Z

Artist: Goo Goo Dolls Lyrics

Could you whisper in my ear
The things you wanna feel
I'll give you anything
To feel it comin'

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are
You live with all your faults

Chorus:
I wanna wake up where you are
I won't say anything at all
So why don't you slide

Yeah we're gonna let it, slide

Don't you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don't suppose I'll ever know
What it means to be a man
Something I can't change
I'll live around it

Chorus

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away

And I'll do anything you ever
Dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
May put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
May do you wanna get married
Or run away

Chorus

Love Moves In Mysterious Ways... doesn't it?

2005-06-01T00:47:24Z

Who'd have thought
This is how the pieces fit?
You and I
Shouldn't even try making sense of it

I forgot
How we ever came this far
I believe we had reasons
but I don't know what they are
So blame it on my heart, oh

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Heaven knows
Love is just a chance we take
We make plans
But then love demands a leap of faith

So hold me close
And never let me go
'Cause even though we think we know
which way the river flows
That's not the way love goes, no

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways

Like the ticking of the clock
two hearts beat as one
But I'll never understand
the ways it's done

Love moves in mysterious ways
It's always so surprising
When love appears over the horizon
I'll love you for the rest of my days
But still, it's a mystery
How you ever came to me
Which only proves
Love moves in mysterious ways
Love moves in mysterious ways

how does one loses his/her sanity?

2005-05-18T07:31:02Z

i went to do some errands this afternoon for the office and on my way back while waiting for a ride, i saw a man, maybe in 20-30 years old, not really sure. he was talking and shouting alone to himself. i kinda almost freak out when suddenly i noticed he's already behind me. geez! im never been glad when my ride came. whew! i wouldnt know what to react if he could have approched me or something.

pahiyas festival

2005-05-16T09:38:02Z

i had a trip with my family yesterday to lucban in quezon province to witness and the pahiyas festival. its trully a wonderful sight. but for the life of me! we walked and walked until our feet get calloused. i guess for almost the whole time we're there we've been walking and walking.

anyways, here are some pics...

crazy_susan @ 2005-05-13T14:14:00

2005-05-13T06:12:23Z

test

crazy_susan @ 2005-05-13T08:59:00

2005-05-13T00:56:34Z

the more you have to write things down, the more you are unable to do so bacause of the lack of time.

back to work first...

what they called work

2005-05-12T10:56:42Z

i guess this is what they called WORK. now I know how is it like to have a job...

test

2005-05-10T11:30:45Z

testing new windows client for lj

crazy_susan @ 2003-09-02T02:10:00

2003-09-01T18:10:38Z

damn, time is most definitely flying fast. seconds turn into minutes and minutes turn into hours and hours into days and days into weeks and so on and so on.

i've spent some time thinking of my current situation. for so long, i've been void of romance and all of a sudden, a certain guy i'm really fond of came out of the scene again. sort of an old flame who was somehow reignited again.

anyway, this guy was a classmate way back in grade school. back then we were never close. it was only when we meet again a few years ago that we became like buddies. i was already working then and he's still in school. from then on, from time to time we would go out have a drink, chit chat here and there, the usual. most of the time with the presence of other friends. we went out before but because of circumstance and other factors, we never became an item although I like him.

now, he's getting in touch with me again. i was surprised but found myself real happy when he came to visit me.

however, here comes the tough part. i think i made such a wrong move and i get queassy about it. i shouldn't have fell into the trap but... ughh! now i don't know what will i do next. i wouldn't want to screw things up again coz i really like him but i made a mistake already. i don't want another good thing to just slip through my hands again.

i'm bothered and confused.

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-18T23:37:00

2003-08-18T15:37:23Z

now i'm back to my mundane existence. every day going to be a routine that i have to act out. same shit, different day.

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-18T01:02:00

2003-08-17T17:02:08Z

from my last post, i talked about going to the wedding of a friend yesterday. you know what happened? i didn't get the chance to ride with my friend as what i've stated coz again i got lazy to get up in time. i kind'a had qualms about going coz i'm late and don't have a gift to bring. but eventually, i'd decided to go regardless. i went on my own. the ceremony was already finished when i reached the church. i'm just glad that they haven't left yet coz i don't know where the reception would be. i saw other friends and ride along with them to the reception place. i wouldn't bore you on the trivial details of the reception coz i know you know what goes on a wedding reception. well, as it should be, the wedding turned out well. the wedding finished off early so we decided to go hang out somewhere and go for booze.

i didn't get back home only til this evening.

oh, just a note. in the group, i'm the only girl who doesn't have a partner.

caio for now

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-16T04:05:00

2003-08-15T20:05:04Z

i should still be in bed sleeping by now. but because i woke up very late this morning i can't get to sleep. i must leave early this morning for my friend's wedding. well, i wouldn't have to if i don't want to. the wedding starts at 3 pm and i don't have any participation in it. i'm just invited to attend. but to save money and avoid rush i have to go to my friend's place for the ride.

but you know what? i feel like not going. i feel lazy in going. i never really liked going to this kind of gatherings. i don't know why. i can't describe the feeling. i just can't put it into words. the thought of seeing other friends again is what keeps me in going.

anyways, on another note. i went out with my cousin earlier to buy a gift for this wedding. but my budget's out of hand. i didn't have enough money for the item i chose to buy and couldn't find something cheaper but nice so i made up my mind. i guess she won't shoo me away for not having one. maybe i'll just find a way to get one later if i still have time. or maybe just ask my other friend to add my name on her gift. hehe. guess she'll understand.

in the street on the way back home, walking toward a food store to get something to take home, i bumped into an old chum from highschool. just a quick exchanging of greetings before we head off. and there includes jokingly remarked on my front bumpers. of all the parts in my body to be noticed! oh guys!

well, that would be it for now. i hope i won't get lazy to get up later.

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-15T00:56:00

2003-08-14T16:56:32Z

again, there was nothing worth writing about.

i didn't know that you can get your hands callouses and blisters in ironing piles and piles of clothes specially on a very hot and humid day. maybe not to those that're used to it. actually, i'm not sure.

anyway, i got my lazy ass up yesterday. the people in the house were like teasing me for one. ironing clothes specially loads is very infrequent for me to do. who would like to press stacks of clothing anyway? but yesterday (i don't know what's got into me) i performed the chore. but i didn't last long. after pressing a few i stopped and rest for a while coz i didn't like the feeling that it brought to my hand. but at 1:30am i decided to carry on coz the hell i don't know why but i wanted to and sleep still eludes me. i pressed more clothes until around 3:00am.

staying up til odd hours and sleeping to odd hours make me do unusual things. i should try to sleep at better times now.

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-13T00:52:00

2003-08-12T16:52:44Z

can't help it. they're just so darn cutees!!!

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-09T23:51:00

2003-08-09T15:51:35Z

right now i'm staying at home on a saturday night, a usual activity now. sleeping would be nice but there are just some nights when sleep eludes you. specially when you get used to sleeping at odd hours.

it's when you're alone that the pain hits you. the television just isn't good enough companion. a good book is always good but then the book isn't really good for snuggling. then it really hurts... the loneliness gets to you. i mean i should get used to this by now but it never gets any easier. i mean, at times i just want to go out with someone for the sake of having someone but then that wouldn't be right now would it? it really sucks being alone.

i guess i'm in one of those depressed moods. it'll go anyway. argh!

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-08T23:30:00

2003-08-08T15:15:23Z

haven't been writing all that much. not that i'm very much occupied or something. it's only that i don't have anything a bit interesting to write about. just trying to chill out.

crazy_susan @ 2003-08-06T23:43:00

2003-08-06T15:43:58Z

i wished i know just how to write better

some supertitious belief

2003-07-17T16:23:46Z

i don't know if you have heard it or not...

it's my nephew's first birthday today. but prior to this day, he has been getting sick frequently...
so to avoid of my nephew's being frequently sick, my brother sold his son to me at my own price. well, literally yes, but of course not in its true meaning.

why, how, where it came from? honestly, i have no idea whatsoever. mom just told us so and just did what she told us.

whatever!

slacking off

2003-07-07T16:09:01Z

Who's MemeJack?

crazy_susan
Magic Number	5
Job	9 to 5 Lifer
Personality	Slacker
Temperament	Best Not To Ask
Sexual	Just Say No
Likely To Win	The Lottery
Me - In A Word	Genius
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crazy_susan @ 2003-06-27T14:29:00

2003-06-27T06:29:58Z

haha! it was moved

crazy_susan @ 2003-06-26T00:37:00

2003-06-25T16:37:24Z

i'll be busy again for a while. but it won't take long. just got a new project to do.

crazy_susan @ 2003-06-21T23:58:00

2003-06-21T15:58:36Z

just got back home

crazy_susan @ 2003-06-07T15:59:00

2003-06-07T07:59:16Z

haay! i just never thought that i would be so engross with this MG - F4 thingy. never in my life that i did something like this. argh! x_x

crazy_susan @ 2003-06-07T01:37:00

2003-06-06T17:37:33Z

sa simula pa lang alam ko na hindi ako tatagal sa trabaho'ng pinasukan ko. nakakatamad naman talaga lalo na kapag wala ka'ng interes sa trabaho'ng pinasukan mo kahit pa sabihin na okay naman ang mga kasama mo. eh gano'n talaga eh. pagkatapos ng dalawang araw hindi na ako pumasok. ewan ko ba, hindi naman sa nawalan na ako ng gana, tinamad lang ako talaga. pero kahit gano'n, kahit isa'ng linggo na rin ako'ng di sumipot tinawagan pa rin nila ako. pakiramdam ko gusto naman nila ako. lalo na yu'ng head namin. siya pa mismo ang tumatawag sa akin para bumalik. pero hindi pa naman talaga ako nagpaalam. naisip ko sayang din naman. lalo na ngayon na mahirap talaga maghanap ng bagong trabaho.

sa isang linggo siguro papasok muli ako. aayusin ko lang lahat ng kailangan. may matatanggap din naman ako kahit papa'no. okay na rin pandagdag sa mga gastusin namin. isa pa, hindi naman siya malayo sa bahay kung iisipin. hindi na ako mamomroblema sa iba pang gastusin. ang magiging problema ko na lang ay ang paggising. matagal na rin kasi akong hindi pumapasok sa opisina ng maaga. kaya nahihirapan pa ako'ng mag adjust sa paggising sa umaga.

haay... ang hirap talaga pag walang hangarin sa buhay. nakukontento kung ano man ang nasa bahay. pero kahit papa'no paminsan-minsa'y nagninilay - ganito na lamang ba ako habambuhay? hindi ko rin naman gusto ang umasa. paano na pag nawala sila? baka sa aking pag-i-isa pulutin na lang ako sa bangketa isang umaga.

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